Today is just one of those days where you wake up and realize that not too much is going to happen because you just don’t have the energy. Last night, I had a friend spend the night and probably stayed up too late, but changing my meds probably doesn’t help much, I don’t think either.
Mom mentioned something this morning about my goals for the day which had been to work on a workbook and reformat my hard drive. I hadn’t done either, but started to list what I had done: got out of bed, got dressed, laid on the couch, slid off onto the floor, etc. By the time I was done, I had quite a list of little things I had done and I realized that sometimes it is the little thing that matters more than accomplishing one big project.
For example, today, my accomplishment is making a loaf of bread, because that seems to be the only thing I did. But if you look at the little things I did today: getting out of bed, getting dressed, making breakfast, eating breakfast, brushing my teeth, and the list goes on…even the simplest task I completed becomes a miniature goal and accomplishment in itself.
If only we would remember to look at these small things as accomplishments, rather than mudane, requirements, perhaps we could all go to bed feeling we’ve accomplished something. An accomplishment doesn’t have to be big. Now if only I could remember this…
i could not agree more! it’s just frustrating when others don’t understand and put you down just because they don’t understand. my accomplishment of the day…getting all my clean clothes put away some of which had been in my laundry tub since Christmas break. but even though my dirty laundry is now clean i wasn’t able to wash it myself and that’s the kind of thing that makes me start getting frustrated…the things i can’t do by myself. but after my fill-in laundress(since Kristina’s not here) got my laundry washed, dried, and folded it(even though i never asked her to fold it) i finally got around to putting it away. so maybe my accomplishment of the day could also include finding a fill-in laundress or even getting my laundry ready to be taken “out for cleaning” in addition to getting it all put away finally…oh and i also managed to shower/wash my hair and dry my hair without having to take a nap afterwards and without falling over either, both of which are accomplishments…man, it is the little things! so i guess i should feel like i did accomplish something despite my desire to be able to do some things on my own. so now i’m terrified and yet waiting not-so-patiently for May 28 and the days following it in the hope of the improvement that has been so long awaited. sorry this is so long…my mind goes off on tangents that end up being a mile or two long. i miss you!