This is the first year that I actually didn’t think about the fact that it was the anniversary of my pain, the day passed just like another holiday. But now, I think about it and see how far I’ve come since I first started this blog as things were beginning.
First, I look at my post, “I Can Niko” I was living with the use of one hand at the time, and posted some of the things I couldn’t do.
“I realized the other day that I had not used my left arm normally in more than six months. I have not folded my own clothes, zipped a Ziploc bag, or clapped my hands in half of a year.…there are so many things I can’t do and may never be able to do. I think of the brand new pair of boots in my closet that I can’t tie, the half-finished scarf on my knitting loom, or the new material I can’t quilt. I pondered of all the frustrations I have faced and will face, including toilet paper out of reach, containers I can’t open, and meat I can’t cut. I still feel a longing for certain things I can’t do with one hand.The thing I long to do more than anything is curl up on my left side, how I used to sleep and sleep one, long peaceful night.”
“Am I cured? Am I perfect? No, but I’m taking little steps toward improvement. And that is all that I ask, that I continue to head toward the goal, a little step closer each day. I need to continue without getting frustrated because I’m not growing enough and be content to grow a little step each day.”